I made reference in my February Favourites post that February was just a little bit pants. If I’m being completely honest, I spent the majority of it sat on my sofa with Rufus and feeling sorry for myself. I didn’t want to go outside, I didn’t really want to do anything all because of how self conscious I was feeling about my eyes.
I bought my routine eye test forward because my eyes were really irritable and watery. My optician told me I had really dry eyes and a weak retina. He also told me I couldn’t wear my contact lenses or wear any eye make up for 2 weeks. I had to wait for a hospital appointment and I was really just left with a feeling of not really knowing what was happening and worried about the health of my eyes.
I’ve addressed how I’m dealing with living with no eye make up. I won’t lie to you; it’s bloody difficult. It sounds ridiculously vain and shallow but I do not feel like me in my glasses. I feel restricted; I struggle to drive in the sun with my glasses as my sunglasses aren’t prescription, if it’s too sunny and I have plans I have to ask my boyfriend to take me, therefore I feel less independent in doing so. I struggle to shower as I can’t see what I’m looking for and hate the feeling of not being able to see. I just really hate not being able to see over my glasses. It gets me down. I also hate not being able to whack a little mascara on or a bit of eyeliner. I had to see a customer this week and I felt complete pants doing that because I didn’t feel like me. I wasn’t giving off the right impression.
Another thing that worries me is the long term future of having a thin retina. I had laser treatment on my left eye this week to fuse together a hole in my retina. Whilst waiting, I was terrified. But, as most things, it wasn’t as bad as I thought. I could ask for more anaesthetic in my eye , (trust me, I asked for all of it) and it only took 15 minutes to carry out the procedure. Although I’m happy that it’s been treated and hopefully worked, I’m still a bit gutted I can’t go back to my lenses and make up. I’m still not me.
I know this post has been a lot of rambly woe is me. But, I am grateful that my optician noticed this and referred me to hospital. I can’t fault the NHS enough for how quickly they saw me and how helpful they were in calming my nerves. Also, thanks to the doctor who carried out my eye procedure and put up with my stupid questions about his job and Star Wars. I am grateful that I’m getting the treatment I need and I’m extremely lucky that I booked my eye test when I did.
I’ll leave this post on this note: please always book your routine eye test. I had no symptoms of a thin retina and only would have noticed it if it was detaching and loosing my eye sight, which is pretty scary. Even if you don’t wear glasses or contact lenses, you need to have them checked regularly. If you work in an office, they are entitled to give you a free eye test so there’s no reason why you shouldn’t go. Anything that you notice different in your eyes, please just book a test.